Zach Stewart Ian Moore

With love XxX

*☆`*•.☆ Waiting For A Star To Fall *☆`*•.☆

I am just sat here waiting for a star to fall*☆`*•.☆
I know you had to go to heaven*☆`*•.☆
For you heard god call*☆`*•.☆

I often sit alone and I wonder why*☆`*•.☆
God has so many beautiful stars*☆`*•.☆
That shine bright in the sky*☆`*•.☆

I had a little message from an angel up above*☆`*•.☆
The angel took my hand and said to me with love*☆`*•.☆
If you look up to the sky in the dark of the night*☆`*•.☆
You will see your angel twinkling so bright*☆`*•.☆

You cannot touch your angel*☆`*•.☆
As you're not very tall*☆`*•.☆
So go inside from the cold*☆`*•.☆
'Cause your angel will not fall*☆`*•.☆

Your angel is now a star*☆`*•.☆
That shines bright in the sky*☆`*•.☆
Twinkling with all the other angels*☆`*•.☆
Way past the clouds up high*☆`*•.☆

I will always love my angel*☆`*•.☆
And pray to god with all of my might*☆`*•.☆
That god will take care of my precious star*☆`*•.☆
That lights up the sky each night*☆`*•.☆


copyright� Jackie Thomas 19/06/09.

April Wee Tommylees Mummy September 27, 2009

After making his new angel
God looked down from above
He happened to notice you
And all he saw was love

He said to the angel
"I need to send you there,
There is where you'll be loved
Where you will feel the most care"

So God sent you this angel
To nuture, love and grow
But not an angel you could keep
For it would soon be time to go

You taught this angel wonderful things
That only a mother could do
Your angel learnt compassion and warmth
Whilst living inside of you

This angel was one that would have to leave
One you'd hardly hold
One you'd mourn for the rest of your life
If the truth be told

God realised you'd miss this angel
And so he gave you tears
A way to express your love
Over the coming years

Then God called this angel home
And asked what the angel had learned
The angel said a love so strong
In a mothers heart had burned

"I learnt that love can exist
Even when I've gone
For love never dies you see
I've learnt it carries on"

God looked at the angel
Smiled and gave a sigh
"You have learnt a valuable lesson
That often passes people by"

The angel looked at God and asked
"Why is my mummy so sad?"
God answered "when I called you home
It made her miss what she had;

But soon she will realise
I sent her a special gift
I sent her you my child
Although I took you swift

Her love for you will never wain
You will remain ever in her heart
You will be in her thoughts and feelings
Like you've never been apart"

The angel asked God what this mummy did
To deserve such a wonderful thing
"Your mummy is so pure of heart
she makes the angels want to sing"

The angel thanked God
For giving him such a lovely mum
So you see in loving your angel
Your work is truly done

God didn't wish to punish you
He only showed you love
He gave you a special angel
A gift from heaven above

He knows only a special person
Can be an angel mum
He made us in his image
He lost his only son

He know's just how your heart aches
And wished that wasn't so
But your angel is so happy
In God's heavenly home

So when you think of your angel
Please just smile, don't weep
Be proud that God chose you
To love an angel so sweet

When your heart feels empty
Your life so full of despair
Remember God picked you!
Because no-one else compares

Carley Malin (Mother) September 21, 2009

For ur 1st anniversary...

We do not need a special day to bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you are very hard to find.
Each morning when we awake we know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache as we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you no one will ever know.
Our thoughts are always with you, your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly; in death we love you still.

There will always to be a heartache, and often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory of the days when you were here.
If tears would make a staircase, and heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven and bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts; and there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now, and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.

Carley Malin (Mother) March 18, 2009

Torn inside....

I lie awake at night time and try my best to sleep
Behind my lids, a roll of film, one I'll always keep.
If somehow I could switch it off, if only for a while
But then the guilty feelings come, for my darling child.
Take a little something, I hear the doctors say
Then the nightmares re-occur and they're stuck on auto-play.
Why can't I dream of happy things? Playing, laughing, fun?
Why do I dream of painful times? Please Zach, please don't run.
All I wanted was the norm, kids, house, car, you know?
I can't begin to comprehend just why you had to go.
A million questions in my head, what if's, why's and so....
The guilt will NEVER leave me, how could I not know?
Is it not a mother's duty, to protect them come what may?
If I ask that query of you, would you know what to say?
I put this big facade on. I'm fine, oh yeah, I'm coping
But inside I'm so torn up, crying, weeping, moping.
Surely you see the pain in my eyes, although they may be dry
The smile I wear is a disguise, oh no, I simply won't cry.
Thank God that I have Lia, who knows where I would be
Well, you and I both know the truth, not sitting here you see.

Carley Malin 09/12/08

Carley Malin (Mother) March 18, 2009

Please....

Please don't look away from me if I start to cry
Please don't think I'm crazy and please don't pass me by.

Please don't feel so awkward, his death is not taboo
It's just it happened far too soon, with nothing we could do.

Please let's talk about him, ask anything you want
It's my favourite pastime, although I normally can't.

Of course it may upset me, he was the apple of my eye
'Was' being the operative word, oh no, I'm going to cry.

It's ok though, they're happy tears, remembering what was
The would've, could've, should've beens, are not the only cause.

So, please don't go, let's have a yarn, it's good to talk they say
But, please don't panic if I cry............and please don't look away

Carley Malin 07/02/09 xxx

Carley Malin (Mother) March 18, 2009

Mommy's little one

NONE OF THESE POEMS ARE PERFECT ENOUGH,
FOR A LITTLE BABY WHO'S MOMMY MISSES SO MUCH.
THE WORDS JUST DON'T SEEM TO BE RIGHT
THEY DON'T EASE MY PAIN OR MAKE MY HEAVY BURDEN LIGHT.
THEY AREN'T RIGHT ON PAPER OR IN MY HEAD,
BECAUSE MOMMY CAN'T DEAL WITH THE FACT HER LITTLE ONE'S DEAD
YOU SEE PRECIOUS ONE, MOMMY'S REALLY SAD AND UPSET
MY LITTLE ONE'S GONE AND I CAN'T MOVE ON YET.
MY BABY HAD TOES, EYES, FEET AND EARS
EVERY TIME I REMEMBER I SHED TEAR AFTER TEAR.
THE DOCTORS LISTENED AND LOOKED,
AND SAID "WE'VE STARED HARD AT HIS HEART AND IT JUST WON'T BEAT"
SEE THE DOCTORS COULDN'T BE RIGHT,
MY BABY'S NOT GONE HE'S JUST FALLEN ASLEEP.
WE SAT AND WE LOOKED, BUT YOU NEVER WOKE UP TO TELL MOMMY HELLO
TO SAY MOMMY I'M HERE, PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP HOPE, DON'T LET ME GO.
NO MOVEMENT OR SOUND TO SAY MOM I'M OKAY
SO THEY TOOK YOU FROM ME, THEY TOOK YOU AWAY.
NIGHT AFTER NIGHT, AND DAY AFTER DAY, MOMMY CAN'T GO TO SLEEP,
MOMMY CAN'T SAY GOODBYE, SHE DOESN'T BELIEVE,
THAT MOMMY'S LITTLE BABY'S IN HEAVEN AND IT'S NOW TIME TO GRIEVE,
FOR THE LOSS OF HER BABY SHE NEVER COULD SEE.
DON'T THINK MOMMY DOES NOT LOVE YOU OR MISS YOU SO BAD,
MOMMY STILL LOVES YOU, MOMMY'S SO VERY VERY SAD.
SEE YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY LITTLE BABY THAT I CARRIED INSIDE,
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, YOU'RE MY JOY AND MY PRIDE.
BABY, MOMMY IS TRYING TO TELL YOU SHE LOVES YOU,
BUT THERE ARE NO WORDS TO SAY,
HOW MUCH YOUR MOMMY WILL MISS YOU DAY AFTER DAY.
THESE WORDS STILL JUST AREN'T NEARLY PERFECT ENOUGH,
FOR THE LITTLE BABY WHO'S MOMMY MISSES SO MUCH.

Carley Malin (Mother) February 18, 2009

I am so so sorry I really am...

I am sorry for your loss I really am. Your little Baby is with all the other little ones that have sadly had to leave us .. I wish it were different for you all I really do.
Take care of yourself.

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Mummy To An Angel (Mummy to another Angel) August 24, 2008

I'm going to tell you something
I hope youll never have to know
i,ll tell you how a heart can break
and tears can constantly flow,
I lost my precious son you see
an angel in my eyes
god chose to take his hand one day
and led him to the skys ,
but please do not forget my child
he was a person too
and forever he will live
inside of me and you,
so please dont ever tell me
that time will heal my pain
because not even time
can bring him back again.
Just tell me that he is happy
in that land way up above
all snuggled in an angels wings
and wrapped in mummys love.

Carley Malin (Mother) August 24, 2008

Why u wee man?

Why God?

The first thing that I asked god,
Was just the reason why.
When he took my precious son,
Beyond the stars in the sky.
As we held onto his body,
I then started to scream and shout.
Was this god so really kind,
As people were making out.
But my anger then turned to sadness,
As we held him in our arms.
He was still our beautiful son,
Truly an angel with all his charms.
It was then I started to wonder,
As my eyes filled up to cry,
Was my angel needed elsewhere,
And is that the reason why.

Carley Malin (Mother) July 16, 2008

mummy\'s little pork pie, i miss u more every day....

I found this on another page.....just sums things up!!


My Mum she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before,
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my Mum how she is,
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie,
Because she can't describe the pain.

Ask my Mum How she is,
She'll say 'I'm alright'
If that's the truth, then tell me,
Why does she cry each night?

Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well,
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.

Ask my Mum how she is,
'I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping'
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.

She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine,
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.

I am here in Heaven,
I cannot hug from here,
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.

On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold,
I'll say 'You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
With all the lies you told!'

Carley Malin (Mother) July 7, 2008